October has been very generous. I have been spoiled from all the wonderful gifts I received and keep receiving (I received a gift from the Calubaquibs today and it's already end of the month), as well as being given the time to actually enjoy and celebrate life.
It was really nice and sweet that my friends cooked (Kar got her hands dirty on a salad, noodles, roasted porkloin, chicken pastel), baked (Clara put her magic on revel bars, white macadamia and an ALMOND chocolate cake :D, ate dinner in my current favorite restaurants (mr jones, nolita, the cake club), and got drunk with me. In all modesty, I am thankful that my support system is still intact and that I am slowly, slowly, bringing back myself in control of my life. well not too much in charge because I am open to unexpected circumstances. Lovely, lovely people.
I am also meeting new people (underwater buddies: Kim and Aja), new hobbies, and new experiences (like having your money eaten by an atm machine days before you're about to leave abroad, or staying in a hospital during your birthday week). I realize that maybe, if I have given myself more chances to life and lose fear of almost everything, things would go much smoother. Even if you don't really know what will happen.
While I still miss people in those strange dreams and silences, I am focusing more on loving myself and looking at the grand scheme of things.
