Nude

Dave Eggers musings

4 Minute Warning

I feel sick. Everybody has been sick last week. My world feels smaller and smaller. The year is coming to a close anyway.

Our high school reunion is coming up, it has been 10 years already. My stomach's tied up in knots just thinking of meeting old friends again and the usual exchanges of where are we now is making me feel nauseous. 

Still trying to find myself.

Come around

Today is my birthday. I chose to have a quiet and calm birthday. I felt like hibernating instead of partying. I didn't even plan what I should wear compared to my past birthdays where I usually try to find that one piece to wear to treat myself. Today I didn't do anything fancy but I sure felt rich and lucky to have friends and family who are more excited of my future. My true friends know I yearn to be free out there and play freely in the universe. Find my purpose. But how why when what are still big roadblocks.

My dad wants me to have more chances for travel and It feels sweet that he still looks out for me. I hope we will have more times to eat out.

My true friends wished for my heart's desires and I've learned this year how much I need to give and take love rightfully. It sucky that I learned it in a very bad way and even if this meant that I hd to be a good girl, clean my conscience, be less angry and hopefully find my inner peace and not burn bridges with people.

I guess it would take time. :) hopefully I still have time