Top things I have learned in the last few days

1. I love to try kitesurfing sometime but I would need a huge ton of muscles to build myself for it.

2. It is not a bad thing if I am not thinking of ANYTHING.

3. I love the smell of sunblock and coconut but my skin asthma is such a killjoy each time I swim on the beach or sunbathe.

4. I need to control my temper and be nicer to people I work with.

5. There is so much music out there. I've got to create my taking-a-shower playlist.

6. It's hard to be around with people. It's hard to be around myself because I don't talk to people. I don't know why I am itching to have somebody to be around with 24/7.

Valentines

I got the sweetest Valentines from:

-Steph - she gave me a Valentine balloon and the pop-up card that says Mr Right, because truthfully she knows what I am going through. So sweet <3

-My dad - he gave me a Chocolate lollipop, and the manner of how he gave it is that he went out of his room and asked me to wait on the dining table, considering he is disabled and it would take time for him to walk, and he brought out a chocolate lollipop and told me he was trying not to eat it all week, he was sad that I didn't come home for the weekend. But he was so glad to see me.

Feeling loved unexpectedly is one of the sweetest things I haven't had in a long time. I will try to be nicer to the world.

Scratch the itch

Its the fourth day since I got a tat last week to cover my old one. I don't know why I decided to get one this year. Part of me still wants to see if I am still how I see myself. Or did I close my mind on everything already?

I used to be more restless, reckless and free but I ended up being more damaged. I am definitely not naive anymore but I also lost my ability to smile in the face of adversity.

I pray this is going to be a great year. I am tired of keeping my hopes up.