Coming back to myself, let the love in. Living in the here and now and living a compassionate life. I've been hating myself for the past five years, never fully taking an effort to assess myself and deal with what has become of me. I used to love myself, free of sorrow, untroubled by worries. I have seen myself grow old and suffocated by the toxicity of myself. I have resorted to alcohol and cigarettes. I dont sleep. I eat little. I've abused myself, being unable to let go of my worries and constantly drowning in hate and despair.
Riding the midnight bus on the way to Sabang, I'm used to this habit of listening to sad songs to feel the ride, but last night when everyone else is asleep, I couldn't choose any song that would fit my brokenness. I am finally feeling peaceful, living in the now, remembering the past with no pain. I love myself now.
Impermanence also means hope. These sad feelings don't last and these negative perceptions would end.
Walk lightly.
