Normandie

I took a hard step back and thought of what you mean to me. Over the weekend I woke up with migraines, still hateful, still feeling remorse, still envious of you meeting new people  and brewing coffee with them which is originally our thing, while I am busy trying to save my team from its own destruction.

Even if the good things weigh more than the super bad ones, I cannot help but look at the real picture. And remembered the reason why I looked for somebody else. I can never demand for your time because its someone else's time.

We will never be what our feelings will be. Real or not, in the end, I am here and you are there. A relationship built out of chaos will always end up in chaos. Though I could never guarantee that the good ones end up good, each ending has to end because it is no longer serving you. 

I hope to keep my faith, courage, and strength to be the better person here. Help me be one, please make things easy for me.

Hey Jude

Books are my friends. They help me think big when I feel small. 

Shadow boxes accountants

I'll get out of bed.

Look forward to tomorrow

How it feels so strange to have grown and changed now its not the same.

Hello sunshine, come into my life

Close the door on things that don't serve you. The red flags are already crawling up like vines and putting a blind eye to the warning calls is not the best choice to make. Let go before it gets harder to let go.

Daily mantra: Ben Folds - There's always someone out there cooler than you

Good riddance

Holiday nap. Holiday rap. Holiday hits. Holiday wits.

I wanna stay inside your head. I wanna drop my thoughts and dump it all on you.

fiction

2014 is proving to be one helluva year. Good days and bad days trickle down like an intense shower storm. I could hardly slip under the covers, sleep like a baby and pretend I don't hear anything. This year has certainly gone to great depths just to test my wits and humor. If there is meaning in all these shitty things, I hope it means I won't have to go through  it again.

I've put myself into terrible situations and even if I know I wasn't treated right, I stayed on and hid my vulnerability. I probably liked this person far more than I had expected myself to. He is the only person who makes me laugh and cry hard and I am so sick of this endless run of emotions. How silly of me to be crying over you. How silly of me to hang on. How silly of me to give you my attention. You can't use me anymore. Even if you say you are not using me, I don't know what is real anymore. 

Rico Blanco - Antukin

ako pa ang naloko ngayon. Kudos! Goodbye