No more high and dry. Its wearing me out. I can't get caught in this mess you're slowly making. I can already see how bad it looks far ahead. Stop with these words and these gestures and these booty calls. I cannot escape into your fantasy. Especially if I know it is never going to be real. I have to use my head this time. Give me back my peace of mind. Leave me out. I'm not one of your girls, don't make me part of that list of girls you're screwing with. I'm sorry, I've always been interested but not like this. Too much is at stake here.
I hope stepping aside will be best for us. I always step aside anyway.
Friday, 31 January 2014
Saturday, 11 January 2014
sparkplug
Its the 11th day of 2014 and I already feel like crap. I am exhausted, physically and mentally. I don't want to deal with my repressed emotions about the situation I am in. I hate to lash out my anger on everybody and I tend to be critical of everything. Maybe I'm just worrying too much.
I want to be hopeful this year but I feel dry. I usually look forward to new beginnings and fresh starts but probably the reason all this is blowing me over is that chapters aren't ending as peaceful as I'd like them to be.
I hope whatever decision lies ahead would make me become a better person and I hope I won't lose myself over shallow petty things.
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