great photographers and the stories they tell

Guillaume Gilbert

It's been a long time since I've looked at works of great street photographers/ photojournalists. With the whole instagram/fb trend, social media is just giving everybody a piece of their vanity and the meaning (or lack of it) serves itself only when the number of likes are high. I like that there are still a few who preserve the nostalgia of capturing moments. I still dream of being one of these people. If only I could save up some money to buy a real real camera.

Kosuke Okahara

OO NGA NAMAN

No Play

View outside office pantry - Solaris Building, June 10, 2013

I've been busy these days with work. So many things have happened in a span of a month and I don't think I could breathe from all the resignations from our counterpart's office. I don't really know how I am doing right now. I know I really wanted to bring in clients for my team to handle but it's just overwhelming. Doing everything to avoid fucking up is the pressure I haven't been handling well right now. I'd like to believe in what my mentor believes in. Even if these are tough times I'd also like to be hopeful that we would learn as a team and move forward in making our team visible in the Manila office and be recognized for a job well done.

I should be spending this weekend working but my heart isn't at peace. I've been watching these movies of old people (One last night at Eiga Sai with Chin and Karen - Dear Doctor, 2009 by Miwa Nishikawa, and the other is a documentary on Bill Cunningham) and these movies have given me so much wisdom about living with less. It has made me more or less miss my paternal grandparents whom I am very close to. What matters truly in life?

big bowl of soup

Before take-off (HK-MNL) - May 22, 2013

It has been half of the year and strangely I am getting more and more headaches. But the thing is, I don't really know what I am actually thinking and needing. It's all scattered in my head. I am getting anxious that I am not getting ahead as much as I want to in terms of work and plans to move the team forward. I have plans to spend my time with something more creative but I haven't really thought about it. I want to be able to keep up with the game when I join water hockey. My problem at home is space. space to do my own thing without being disturbed or nagged at. space to sleep soundly. Insomnia is such an understatement since 2011. I am stuck and my mind is getting soupy from racking my head with what I could do to endure/alleviate/solve this. 

Darling, I got you a paperclip.

"Darling, if life is a car journey, and fortune is the weather, then sometimes fortune shines and we can fold down the roof and speed along joyfully. But sometimes fortune blows cold, freezing our progress - and when it does you're always there to overcome the frost of uncertainty and let us see the road ahead. Just llike this ice scraper."

Feelings of escapism

best described by Ivy.

 

Migraine

Korea - January 2013

I don't know why I'm getting migraine these days. The terrible hot Manila weather might have something to do with it. I try to move around today but I'm stuck to the sofa, attempting to read Kurt Vonnegut/Fyodor Dostoevsky or sleep it off. In my attempts to dismiss it, I have slept twice, ate thrice, drank coffee, drank beer but still it doesn't go away. I carry on with my day stumbling upon this song and to my joy, a certain calmness hits me.